9 weeks (on the dot!)
I saw my tribble today!
One little tribble with a really fast heartbeat. It’s still so unreal that I am carrying a little person in me. This being my third child you would think Id be used to the idea but no… so surreal!
8 weeks 6 days
Nausea. Nausea. Nausea.
Little taps that feel like movement.
Ultrasound tomorrow…
Hungry but UGH NAUSEA!
8 weeks 3 days
Had my doctors appointment this Monday. Everything came back looking great. I am so happy that the Tribble seems to be growing as necessary.
However, this week my morning sickness has kicked in very hard! I often have to stop what I am doing and rest (possibly even lay down in front of the toilet) just to get my stomach to calm down. I fear taking pills I was given (antibiotics) not because of any effect to the baby (they are generally proven safe) but because I do not want to have another one come back up. That was the most disgusting vomit ever. Everything tasted like the pill. I was crying afterward.
This Tuesday I get to go in for my first ultrasound! Everyone is quite convinced I am having twins. Several people have had dreams that I am. I am convinced that there is just one little Tribble in there… one happy and healthy little tribble.
That is all for now… I am so extremely tired I can hardly keep my eyes open. Bedtime was two hours ago!
7w5d
Finally got insurance! So now I can call the doctor’s office tomorrow and hopefully get an appointment for Tuesday or Wednesday. I will be 8 weeks Tuesday which means we might be able to hear the heartbeat on the doppler!
My morning sickness really kicked itself up a notch this week. I have thrown up twice! It really is morning sickness too. Usually gone around 10:30/11am and only made worse later in the day by eating.
I swear I feel a tap now and then right where the baby would be. Never anything large and I only feel it when I am laying in bed. I know I am probably crazy, but in just over 2 weeks I will likely be feeling flutters!
I had a huge scare last night… and here we may go into a bit too much information for you guys. I wiped and saw bright red blood and CLOTS on the paper! I freaked out, started crying and stood up to see more blood in the toilet. Then I composed myself and found where the blood was coming from. A bleeding hemorrhoid!
Thank goodness! I was so freaked out. I have a major fear of seeing blood when I wipe, so terrified to lose this little tribble. So, for now all is good. The tribble is between a half-inch and an inch long according to all the literature I have read.
6 weeks 2 days
I threw my back out last night. NOT a good way to start off a pregnancy is it?
We announced the pregnancy to the general public last night although I said I wanted to wait until 13 weeks. I don’t want to wait. I want to be optimistic! I want to honestly believe that this baby WILL be born in September.
I changed my wedding dress… I changed my shoes… we need to find a new location for our wedding and someone to officiate. But I am actually more excited now. I do not feel like I will be held to so many rules as I would have had we gotten married in his church.
My back hurts so bad right now… and I am getting waves of nausea (have been since this morning) but unsure if it is due to my back being out or the pregnancy.
However, I am SO happy that tonight’s supper is Chinese food. Ive been craving something sweet and as crazy as it sounds, chocolate does not sound that great right now. But sesame chicken does!
I’m in jeans! Ry bought me two bella bands and of course I had to use one right away so I could get out of my yoga pants. They are comfy but sometimes you just NEED jeans you know?
Man, my back hurts 
And I think I pinched a nerve in it as I have had spasms in my upper abdomen all day. But man… my back hurts.
5 weeks 4 days
Peeing a lot. Blargh. And my feet are cold!
No nausea at all today. At. All. Yes, that worries me.
Especially since I told my family and the kids today. I do not want to lose it now that they know!
5 weeks 2 days
How I feel?
Tired, sore, sick sometimes.
I wake up every morning at 3:00 am on the dot and then again at 6:55am on the dot. The second time I close my eyes and lay there, waking up, until the alarm sounds at 7. Then I get up and get Thias ready for school.
I wake up other times too. I just do not know why 3am… every single morning… 3am I wake up.
I have been going to bed earlier too… it makes it easier to get up at 7am if I go to bed at 9pm. Last night I do not remember what time I went to bed but I felt very sick to my stomach and did not fall asleep until after 11pm. I am so glad Thias does not have school tomorrow so I can sleep in!
Right now… I worry because I do not feel THAT sick. Sometimes I feel like I am about to vomit, but do not actually have nausea. Other times I have nausea and dizziness so I feel like the time period between being drunk and being hungover. Without the headache.
I saw my doctor this week. Tuesday, actually. 5 weeks to the day. I needed a confirmation of pregnancy to get put back on the insurance. Waiting on a call now so I am put back on, then I can call her office and set up my appointments from now through 30 weeks. I know I want to schedule an appointment for my last day in Polo, but Im not sure when that will be for sure. I am sure they will be more than happy to acommidate me on that though, since I will be driving 1100 miles over the two days following… with a new husband, two children, a cat… and a HUGE belly. In the beginning of July.
Then when I get down there I will be seeing my midwife a LOT. I think she said already every other week at 30 weeks and shortly thereafter becoming weekly.
My fears right now… I have so many.
I fear the reaction from our families. I think that is #1. We aren’t married yet, though we will be before the little tribble shows up. Of course my past experience shows that you get over the negative pretty quickly when a tiny little baby is involved.
I fear that since I am due so close to my first loss (less than a month) that I will lose this one too. I know that is silly… but really I do fear that.
I fear that since I do not have morning sickness to the point of vomiting yet (well sort of, last night, but not completely) that it is going to turn into HG again… I fear 3 weeks from now when that is most likely to show up.
I fear every time I go to the bathroom I will wipe and find blood.
I fear not being able to enjoy my wedding because I will be 29 weeks along at that point. That, I know, is not a valid fear. But it is a fear nonetheless.
HOME!
That is right…
RYAN
IS
HOME!
And I could not possibly be happier. This has been the best day I have had in a very long time! Albeit also longest and most exhausting.
We capped off the evening with a stroll on Atlantic Beach watching the sunset.
My man.
I am in love with a Marine.
This does not mean I support war or violence. I hate war. I hate violence. I hate guns and I hate suffering. I hate people being injured over someone elses beliefs. I hate families being ripped apart by distance or death. I hate hate.
I love my Marine. I support him 100% because its not his decision to go to war. It is his job.
I am not in love with him because he is a Marine.
I am in love with a Marine because it is him.
I love the kindness that is almost constantly present in his eyes, the way he coos over babies and kittens, the way he loves my children as though they were his own.
I love that he is a nerd and doesn’t roll his eyes at me when I make a bad joke but comes back with his own.
I love the way his arms feel wrapped around me, the way he looks at me as though no other woman could be more beautiful, the way he walks up behind me and randomly hugs me.
I love that he is just as excited over possible places we may visit someday as I am… be it an exotic beach or some historically significant site.
I know that Marines are not brainwashed or cruel. Some men who are Marines are cruel… but it is not that they are a Marine that makes them that way. It is not an excuse. It is just a job.
On that note, he will be back in my arms in 8 days!
I was contacted today
I was contacted by Skype this morning. Now, I do not mean I was contacted over Skype. I mean a member of P.R. from Skype contacted me.
She wanted to know why I use Skype with Ry overseas, how we use it, how long we have used it and if I had any cute stories to share.
After replying back with about a page and half of info on how much I adore Skype for making one thing easy in a situation where NOTHING is easy, she asked for permission to give my name and contact info to the media and to use bits of our story for advertisements for Skype and the USO. Ry did volunteer work for the USO for several months while stationed in Kuwait so we are more than happy to help out with this.
